Depression...

Many of you should have noticed that these few days I've gone emotionally crazy 'cos now I'm sad and the next I'm so cheerful like siao. Haiz, too many things have happened that I just can't forget...

I wish everything could go back to the way it used to be. I had close friends, had ***, my world was damn perfect, not missing anything at all. Now, my heart is just hollow...

Someone said something about not going to Rivervale Mall today or something. Seriously, no one actually pays heed to it anyway. Saw quite alot of people as usual. Waited for Sharon while she bought her lunch at Macdonald's. Saw *** walking out and *** ** ****. Before that at the traffic light, I ha already *** *** and we both know ** *** **** **** ***** and as usual we knew *** ***** ******* **. We keep ******** **** *****'* *** but we are *** ****** ** ****. Haiz, can't things go back to the very beginning?

That freaking guy sported contact lenses or something today and we were like saying "So weird, so weird!" Lol... Then he must have heard or whatever and went to put on his white specs which was not the usual one and we still thought it was damn weird anyway... Me and Wendy came up with a theory that he must have put contact lenses when he came to school but then went to the toilet to take them out and replace them with his specs when he realised it looked damn weird. Lol... High chance we are right. :)

I need my perfect world BACK, for goodness sake. I need everything back to normal. But I know I can't change things, haiz... :( I've thought about it alot these few days but I'm still upset after so long. I wish I *** *** ****. It's too bad ** ***** *** and I know there's this kind of barrier between us. I **** ***, but at the same time, I **** ***. It's getting me even more upset. It's too bad I can't decide everything.

Sorry, but next paragraph is in *s.

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Not very looking to school tomorrow. We're going to waste time attending some kind of secondary school fair. Stupid. And then the school is not like exactly the schools I would choose, so.... You know what I mean. Can't we like, choose if we want to go or not? Seriously....

They kinda "taught" us how to dance a little of the grad party dance today. And then the class wasn't really cooperating anyway. And then they were like only teaching the boys in front and didn't bother us and we were so pissed off. Mr Soh is so bias, he gave all the decision rights to YuXi and we can't even vote what we want to do. Haiz... It's not that I don't like YuXi, I just wish we could choose. And then the other classes were like either song and dance, skit, or whatever but definitely much better than ours. And only our class is one dance and we don't even need mikes. Damn. I though grad party was supposed to be fun?

Going to distract myself by watching music videos on Youtube and singing along. But running out of songs and searching for random songs. Lol...

Till tomorrow! :D